Ministry at the Crossroads

“You simply MUST apply for this position!” The e-mail from Nancy wasn’t a complete surprise, since Southern Methodist University had recently announced that a sizeable contingent of staff persons could expect to be laid off within the next six months.

The information trickled out from SMU last fall with little detail, and all I could piece together was the likelihood that the number of staff positions to be cut University-wide would exceed 150. The number of staff persons to be laid off from Perkins School of Theology in particular was not disclosed. A terse communication from SMU administration only indicated that most of the persons whose jobs were to be terminated would be notified sometime during or after the month of February 2015 – an agonizing wait of four or five months and, more to the point, a very late date for clergy serving under appointment to indicate to our bishop that we might be seeking an appointment elsewhere.

Thus I found myself notifying my supervisor at Perkins, and my district superintendent in the North Texas Conference, that I would be considering alternative avenues of ministry. And thus my beloved Nancy came to discover that Crossroads Ministry of Estes Park was seeking an Executive Director.

Largely at Nancy’s urging, I prepared a letter of interest as part of the application process, which I duly submitted along with my résumé. I applied for one other position as well, also out of state.

To my surprise, I soon received expressions of interest from both of the places I had contacted, and a series of events led to detailed interviews with each.

At this point, I must confess that I had some misgivings. Most of these misgivings centered, ironically, around how much I love Estes Park, Colorado.

Almost every summer for about 10 or 12 years starting around the mid-1990s, I traveled to Estes Park for recreation and rejuvenation in the form of primitive camping. I journeyed into town from my campsite on the side of Twin Sisters Peak every few days, for supplies and such. The wilderness and the town itself – nestled in the Estes Valley between magnificent snow-capped mountains, was beautiful beyond belief. I never tired of it, and eventually managed a successful climb to the summit of Long’s Peak – which, at more than 14,200 feet, is the tallest mountain in the area. After one memorable vacation experience, I even quipped to a few church members – in Dallas, no less – that God actually lived in the mountains of Colorado but came down to Texas on Sunday mornings for worship!

Why the misgivings, then?

First, I was determined that I would not allow my love of that beautiful setting to blind me to the reality that my gifts – and my heart – needed to be appropriately aligned with the needs and responsibilities of any ministry to which I might be called. On reflection, it seems silly that I might interpret my deep affinity for the location as an impediment rather than an affirmation of God’s good will. But silly or not, I felt compelled to proceed with caution.

Second, there were some concrete obstacles to be overcome. Nancy and I bought a house in Dallas just last July. While home prices in the Metroplex continue to rise dramatically each month, it  was unlikely that we would have enough equity to cover realtor fees and closing costs – even if we could sell the house on short notice.

Moreover, for a variety of reasons – including the devastating floods in Colorado in September 2013, mid-range housing for rent or lease is virtually non-existent in the Estes Valley these days.

Even if the housing complications on both ends could somehow be overcome, there was Nancy’s education and ministry to consider. She was just starting to apply for residency positions in Dallas-area hospitals to continue her chaplaincy training. Would she have to remain in Dallas for a year to complete her training? How would we manage both our current house note and the cost of housing in Estes Park? In any event, I am not keen on being apart from her for such a long period.

In the meantime, a long-awaited announcement finally came. Four staff positions – held by colleagues dear to all of us – were eliminated at Perkins School of Theology. Others were assigned different responsibilities as a new organizational chart was implemented. My position, however, was retained. I no longer needed a position elsewhere in order to ensure gainful employment in ministry.

In the face of those developments – and a few other obstacles not detailed here – I nevertheless accepted an invitation to at least visit Crossroads Ministry of Estes Park for a personal interview with their search team.

And to my delighted surprise, I simply fell in love with the people there, and with the remarkable ministry they have built over the years by the grace of God.

Crossroads Ministry is an ecumenical Christian service organization providing short-term assistance to low income clients, ongoing services to clients on low fixed incomes, and encouraging self-sufficiency of clients through educational opportunities.

It began with one local church's establishment of a food pantry in 1982, a ministry which – due to overwhelming need – quickly expanded to include 14 other partner congregations, with additional support from a variety of other organizations and agencies. Estes Valley Interfaith Council sponsored Crossroads Ministry's application for tax exempt status, which was received from the State of Colorado in 1985, and from the IRS in 1987.

I was astonished to discover that Crossroads Ministry currently serves one in 10 residents of the Estes Valley.

The ministry has been blessed with dedicated support from a wide range of volunteers and donors, as well as the community at large. It has benefitted from compassionate and competent leadership, along with a supportive and highly capable Board of Directors, comprising representatives from the founding congregations.

The morning after my interview with the Crossroads Ministry search team, I received an invitation: they were prepared to recommend me to the Crossroads Board of Directors for the position of Executive Director. I had 72 hours to accept.

Two days later, in a letter to my bishop, I wrote the following about my desire to be appointed to Crossroads Ministry:

I make this request after deep soul-searching, counsel with trusted friends and colleagues, and prayerful discernment. I can think of no ministry more worthwhile or compatible with my gifts, graces, and experiences, as well as my own present spiritual and theological orientation.

In a word, I believe I have been blessed to be called by God for this work, and am thankful to have received the invitation to serve. I also am appreciative of the unwavering support I have received in this endeavor from my supervisor at Perkins School of Theology, Rev. Connie Nelson.

In addition to writing Dallas Area Bishop Mike McKee, I sent a letter withdrawing myself from further consideration for the other position I had originally applied for.

About three weeks afterward, on Monday, March 30, the Board of Directors of Crossroads Ministry of Estes Park unanimously affirmed my call to serve with them as Executive Director.

Thanks to the kindness and efforts of Crossroads Board members and their acquaintances, Nancy and I secured a one-year lease on a beautiful little home in Estes Park that same weekend. (Yes, it has a guest bedroom. And yes, we look forward to welcoming family and friends as our guests!)

Within a few hours of signing the lease in Estes Park, Nancy and I received a text message from a dear colleague and friend, indicating a commitment to lease our house in Dallas.

Nancy is excited about pursuing opportunities for continued chaplaincy training in Colorado, and we are trusting that our needs will be met in this regard, even as so many other obstacles have seemed to melt away.

My last day on staff at Perkins School of Theology is May 15. I selected this date, in part, because of my commitment to the Connections band, which has its final concert of the season that evening, in support of our mission to raise funds for health needs in Africa.

Fortuitously, Nancy completes her current unit of Clinical Pastoral Education (CPE) May 18. We expect to move that week, and I plan to begin my duties as Executive Director of Crossroads Ministry on May 26.

As I’ve reflected on these developments, it occurs to me how serving in this capacity hearkens back to my earliest experiences with The United Methodist Church. I became a United Methodist in large part because of the impact Grace United Methodist Church had on the poor, as it united with other churches in the East Dallas Cooperative Parish to meet the needs of the community by providing a food bank, clothing bank, medical clinic, legal clinic, and more.

I went on to pursue ordination in the Methodist tradition because I so deeply value John Wesley’s now-famous dictum in his sermon, “On a Catholic Spirit”: “Though we cannot think alike, may we not love alike? May we not be of one heart, though we are not of one opinion? Without doubt, we may.”

The mission of Crossroads Ministry is to demonstrate Christian love by providing basic human services to Estes Valley residents in need.

This new journey offers a profound opportunity for meaningful ministries of compassion in my later years, as the inscrutable and ineffable Holy One writes a new chapter, page by page and word by Word.

Thanks be to God.